What breaks my heart

Down a tunnel, I have learned much and I have much to learn.
I have let logic and reason dictate the course of life.
It holds true that mistakes of reason governs the mind.
It is a veil that clouds the perception of expressive views.
It’s a suppression that clouds our conscious judgment.

It possesses an insatiable hunger for knowledge that fuels the very basis of reasoning and logic.
Someone once told me that the virtue of knowledge exceeds innocence out of ignorance.
But sometimes, I find bliss through ignorance far superior.
It only takes simple logic to stagger the very foundations of belief and faith but sheer ignorance to believe the impossible.

I regret that emotion plays second fiddle to predominant reasoning.
I envy those that are led by emotional ecstasy and woe.
They have nothing to lose but everything to gain.
I have tasted the rule of emotion.
It’s a different dimension of vivid colours and dreams, a fountain of highs and lows, a valley of love and hate.
Like a puppet, mortals are cast under a spell of irrelevant choices, decisions and actions.

In this delusional reality, I could kiss the moon and greet the sun,
I could lay slumber on cloudy haze and feast by a burning brook.
I would listen to the silence of the stars and sing to the tune of Venus.
I’ll find a rattling bush and play the wails of passing herds.
Alas, reality robs you of your wildest fantasies and leaves you bitter and frail.
It also reminded me that many I have hurt, and like dreams, my apology of words can only go so far.

I lay exiled from the sovereignty of emotions.
I betrayed reason and logic and paid dearly.
I’m left to mend shards of bleeding petals in whirled seclusion
I now bury these crystal beads in the fabric of death for I pay the price of treason.

What breaks my heart lies in ignorance whose life has been depravedly seized by knowledge.
What breaks my heart lies in the allegiance that I plead to logic and reasoning.
What breaks my heart is that I long for the rule of emotion but I know better.



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Its been almost a year since i last penned down my thoughts.
Boy does it feel good to write!!!!
I realize that most of my crappy post are too optimistic and happy.
That is really unfair for the emo in me.
Hence, it is only fair if I write a crappy post that is pessimistic and sad.